to succumbing

my dreams are in red
my waking hours in black
the monster in my  head
refuses to cut me slack

he drives me to hideous alleys
from where i cannot backtrack
and there his shady loonies
push me my share of stack

and then the happy stuff
flows freely in my veins
with a happy sigh he sleeps
the monster in my brains

i make me a steely resolve
'i'll put up my best fight'
and i say this to myself
night after night

and when the monster awakes
smiling with delight
another day i go down
laughing at my plight!